My Path or His Way

Covid Struck Me to the Core

On February 23, 2021 I came down with a bad sinus infection, in which I figured with all the vitamins I had been taking advised by doctors, on a strict diet plan, and working out 5 days a week it would pass as normal. As the week went on I never got better and by the weekend I felt I needed medicine. So that Monday I had a doctors appointment over FaceTime. I was prescribed medicine, in which I thought would be the case.

On Wednesday, March 3rd, I woke up for the first time without a fever and thought everything was going away. Little did I know moments later, I spiked a fever and started coughing up blood. I knew something was severely wrong even though I tested negative for Covid-19 twice that prior week. Natalie got me to urgent care in West Columbia and I ended up testing positive for Covid and bilateral bacteria pneumonia. When the doctor wanted me transported by ambulance, once again affirmed this wasn’t a good sign. I will have to say without a doubt in my mind, wheeling down the sidewalk on stretcher to the ambulance telling my wife goodbye emotionally was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. The unknown was overwhelming remembering everything from the news when individuals got to this point with the virus. Wheeling into the ED was very chaotic to say the least with 4-5 people working very fast to get things were they needed to be. Going to ICU for the next 7 days was like a blur even though I had so many mixed emotions. I think my wife and I talked more this week than we did we first starting dating.

I watched the Disney channel for six days and nights straight but I was numb because not only fighting through Covid, I knew I had another battle afterwards. While in the ED a doctor ordered a CT Scan to confirm I didn’t have a blood clot in my lung, and unexpectedly found a malignant mass in my right kidney. Only 10% of Covid patients get CT Scans of their lungs. I am 41 years old fighting a severe Covid case and processing that I will be having surgery in the near future for my kidney.

I was numb because I had not been devoting my life to Jesus but work and bodybuilding. You see I could have beat myself up for this but I remembered the teachings that we often fall away from Jesus, but He never moves. I thought how blessed I was for changing my lifestyle two and half years ago and diving deep into the bodybuilding world because that gave me strength to fight Covid. Also remembered how Jesus still allows miracles to happen even when we don’t feel we deserve them. Yes, finding that tumor through the CT Scan for Covid was a miracle.

So by waiting patiently and listening to my body, I went to urgent care on the day He had planned because that is when His miracle would happen. Many people have said, Jesus is going to use you in an extremely special way and we are excited to watch! The problem with finding out what Jesus would want for me would require stillness, patience, and diving into His Word to hear His Voice. I have been moving a little, patiently waiting for surgery and recovering from Covid for the past month; this stillness has been some of the most rewarding time in my life. I will also get to have more time to be still, patient, and dive in His Word while I recover from surgery. He is restoring me to where I was spiritually years ago and given me a desire that I am trying to understand in His perfect timing.

So find time to be still, patient, and be in His Word or He will use whatever it takes to ensure you are fulfilling His Will. He got my attention and now He is getting mine each and every day!

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